Karen Walker...Oh how I luv thee

Totally LOVE her! She so reminds me of myself sometimes...ok, most of the time ;)

Friday Night Lights (Week 10 MHS vs. Pitman HS)

Two Words:: We Lost! We're done for the year! We are heartbroken

Merced's three-year reign over the Central California Conference came to an end with a giant thud. Pitman shoved, stomped and just flat ran over Merced on its way to a 49-7 win on Friday night at Merced College. Merced's season is suddenly over...

No fourth straight title.

No playoffs.

"I don't know what happened, I kind of feel like I'm in a total fog right now," said Merced coach Rob Scheidt, whose team dropped to 4-2 and 4-6. "The kids never expected this to happen. I don't think anybody did. You have to give (Pitman) credit. They did a great job."

Until next year...here are a few pics to finalize our season~

Gregory with a special fan

**Merced Sun-Star.com

Jelly Pumps by Vivienne Westwood

I first saw this on a friend of mines blog Alliemarque. She's such the fashionista and going to be very famous one day. This girl has talent and style. Jelly Pumps by Vivienne Westwood are to diiiie for! I want a pair in every color. You MUST take a peek~

Katy Perry sportin her Jelly

Thanks Alliemarque for posting this~~

Merry Early Christmas to Me!

I just ordered a Black, Brown, & Green one for me! I love it so warm and cozy!

Friday Night Lights (Week 9 MHS vs. Turlock HS)

Again WE WIN!!! Our stats now are 4-1 in the CCC and 4-5 Overall. One more win and the Central California Conference title is ours!!! Lets go Bears! Next week will be a tough game against Pitman High School

G warming up. #85

"Ocho Cinco"

Keep an eye on #85 ~ Warming up just before the game

#85 - Top of the screen - 35yd line - Black sleeves ---THAT'S my boy!!

YANKEES win World Series!!!!!

WE WIN!!!!

World Series baaaaaby!!! (Yankees 7 ~ Phillies 3) and Im LOVIN life!

Starbucks does it again!!

These arrived today at my local Starbucks. Yep. It's official the holidays have arrived. Thanks you Starbucks for kicking off the season.

I love this time of year. Everyone seems to be in the spirit of a mood, Christmas music is playing in the department stores, Turkey $$ coupons with every purchase at Raley's, and White Peppermint Mocha at my fav stop of all time ~ Starbucks

Im in the mood~~~

Dear Santa...I would LOVE one of these!

Victoria Secret...The Soft & Sexy Wrap

I love this! 6 different styles in 1 wrap! I would love to have this in

Eggplant Heather

Over-the-shoulder
Tie-front Belted Cardigan

Cross-front-tie-back

One Shoulder

Tied in the back

Finding my way back...

If you are my family or close friend, you all know that lately I have been dealing with some spiritual confusion. Ive been lost and didn't know how to find my way back or even if I wanted to find my way back. When did I lose so much faith? When did I lose my way? I have no clue! My children and myself have all been baptized in the Catholic Church and I thought I did all the things that I was supposed to do as a mother to make sure my boys have the faith, but something wasn't right. The church we had been attending wasn't a good fit for our family. Nothing seemed right about it, really it seemed "confusing", that we were attending out of some social or morale obligation. I found a new church (Yosemite Church) and have only attended once with Gregory. It was such a wonderful experience. Even the Pastor recognized that we were new and welcomed us with open arms. Now instead of going every week, we've stopped going all together.

We have had to experience some transitional issues in the past 2 years and this is when I went off the deep end in my regards to my feelings about the Lord. I had just ended a 7 1/2 year relationship with someone I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I mean Gregory was just 8 yrs old when "M" and I met and now Gregory is 16. The question I had was... "If God exists, how could this be happening to me/us? How could he not save us? Our relationship ended on August 14, 2009 and I'm just now getting back on my feet.

After I lost my 7 1/2 yr relationship and going through the grieving process is when I recently discovered and realized that the Lord had been there all along, he is waiting for me/us with forgiveness. Being that it is November 1st, I have made a promise to myself and the Lord that I will again show up in his "house" and praise him! I need him and he needs me! This is going to be a reunion I have been hoping for, for such a long time.

I have made so many mistakes in my life, not being the person I truly was meant to be. Forgiving myself for my sins has been painful. Looking within myself, admitting my sins, praying and really forgiving myself has been excruciating. How could I ask Heavenly Father to forgive me if I could not first forgive myself? This peace and calmness within my heart is such a blessing, no longer carrying the negative feelings about myself and others that I had. Life is such a continual spiritual journey and I am learning every day. I am not naive in thinking that I am free from sin, I am not. The most beautiful part of this journey is seeing others in a new light and know the evil that lies within judging others and gossip.

I have found a new church! Is it a better fit? Yes. My job as a mother is teach my children to be morale, good people. I have peace that I am on the right path to living my life as my authentic self.

~Please keep Gregory and I in your thoughts and prayers...I Love you all!

About last night...Halloween '09

Had the BEST time with my girls and to be honest I wasn't going to dress up. Just going to buy some kitty ears and call myself "The Cougar". Well, "G" and I were talking at lunch and I made the comment, "Heck your uniform is clean, I should just wear that and be a "MHS football player". Of course he liked the idea and said "Why NOT mom!!!" So there I am, having my 16yr old son putting his pads in his football pants for his mom to wear! LOVE IT!

The famous bathroom self portrait!

Becky Nicole and I. Isn't she adorable?

Becky Nicole & Austin ~ Amazing couple as Adam and Eve


Carol and Elvis